Becoming More of a Reality

The past couple of weeks has been full of ups and downs, firstly trying to work out how my body is going to react to the chemo was the toughest as the constipation ended up being very painful and I was starting to get sick and nauseated from that rather than the chemo. 


The sickness from the chemo lasted around the 5 -6 days then I started to be able to function ok until the other side effects kicked in now they have been worked out and I am prepared. I am still not looking forward to next Thursday as I know the nausea will be bad. But on the bright side it will mean I only have 4 cycles to go ! 


The first week nothing much happened apart from the nausea and the sleep my body craved sleep so I gave into it and slept obviously that's what my body needed. I didn't eat much either my taste buds changed and things didn't taste the same my favourite foods were not appetising to me any more. I was at my mums and she had Nutella in the pantry so I thought that will get the taste buds going, when I tasted it I turned to mum disappointed and said this doesn't taste like chocolate, I guess that is a good thing I am a bad chocolate freak and well haven't had any since the first week, not worth it if it doesn't taste like chocolate.
The start of the second week I noticed my hair strands were starting to fall out but nothing too dramatic until the end of that week when I noticed that when I was combing my hair with my fingers that more hair was starting to fall out, it is still a week away from my next cycle of chemo and my hair was starting to fall out quite a bit. 
So i thought that it was time to get some scarf's and a wig, one I ordered over the net and am waiting for it to arrive and the other I went to a shop in Subiaco great place lovely lady  Place is called Cheveux on Hay.






This was my hair at the start of week 2 it was starting to fall out but only at some areas so I didn't really notice it too much it was only falling out when I brushed it.  

 This picture is Thursday of week 2 my hair had started to fall out in clumps and it was starting to fall out and be everywhere it would be on my back from just walking around and I couldn't touch it without it being on my hands. 


This is just from me running my hand through my hair, it got a little bit depressing and well got a little annoying having hair around all the time, I had already cut 9.5 inches off my hair already so I asked Mat if he could shave it for me and of course he thought this was awesome and laughed, you can imagine the nicknames I now have !!!!  

This is what the same area looked like that Thursday as you can see the bald patch has gotten bigger and only bound to get even bigger! 


SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO it was only logical get rid of it. 

 Why not have some fun hey !!!!
So I just hacked at my hair it was coming off anyway. 
The one person that amazes me through all of this is my son he is nearly 4 and has accepted everything and embraced it with love for me like no other.


When I said that my hair is falling out and showed him he said "oh that is not good " I said to him that it wont be forever and it will grow back he had been to the wig shop and he said to me "it's ok you got new hair" 

I had a Bald patch like no other :) 


So it started he clippers were read and Mat was happy to do it so here it is my new do. 

  

Its amazing the wigs they have out there now this is a synthetic wig I wasn't really fussed to a real hair wig when I was shown these as the real hair were much more expensive and I couldn't afford it so I opted for this one, will see what the one from the UK is like it is supposed to be 50% Human hair so well see what the difference is when it arrives.


When I got the wig Mat asked to see it and was opening the box he asked my son what's in the box he simply turned and said "its mums new hair its pretty have a look" :) He makes me smile when things get tough he always looks to the obvious and isn't fazed by it so it helps me be strong. 

 


But when I need to go out I have this it is so like my own hair that I had before I started this big battle so I don't feel too concious when going out and about :) It will be exciting to see what the new wig from the UK looks like !