Bump In The Road: Second Cycle NOT SO GOOD :(

Hello all it has taken me longer than normal to get to update this this time around.
My second chemo cycle I thought I was going to be ok, when I went in I was feeling really good and was prepared more than the last. I had a plan to beat the constipation so was feeling positive.
Mum came with me this time and it must be boring for others to go with me but I was grateful to her.

I arrive and get a Milo that doesn't taste like much, my taste buds still not back Ur well I can handle food so that's the main thing.
It was an 8:30 session so I thought by lunch time I was going to be sick at home in bed, the nurses are great and keep you occupied as well as I met a lovely lady who was back for her second time in the chair so we chatted and she was really positive for someone being through it all before.
We talked about wigs and she was impressed with the one that I had on so I Googled the address for her and gave her the address of THE UK WIG SHOP on line through ebay great wigs and really well priced. Then it was over it seemed to go really quickly and I felt ok so we left and I said to mum ill drive, I was feeling hungry so suggested going for lunch because I was feeling so well. We went to a really nice place and had scallop & prawn pasta with a beautiful white creamy sauce.

I was feeling ok until about 7 that night then the nausea hit and I was onto the tablets to relieve it, I went to bed about 9 thought ill get rest. In the following days I was resting a lot but not too bad until day 4. I have a problem with my stomach when I have chemo it doesn't seem to want to or know how to work.
To try to explain it to you all (it is really hard) normally you cant feel your stomach when you eat and most people rub their lower tummy when they say they are full, for me it is really hard to eat anything the food doesn't seem to go anywhere it feels like your food is stuck in your oesophagus just before your stomach so its doesn't make you want to eat.

Nothing seems to make you feel better, for days I felt hungry and needed to eat to help with the nausea but then felt sick when I did eat. I found myself vomiting a lot this time and it became very uncomfortable. It was even at 12am in the morning that I found myself up vomiting and showering and trying to get back to sleep.
The worry and depression kicked in as I felt really sick most of the time, I also didn't have any energy to do anything sitting on the couch not wanting to move at all, I started to cry and worry I was going to feel like this forever. The smoothies saved me, they were full of fruit, fruit nectar and milk with frozen yoghurt and real fruit. I had them for breakfast and dinner so I am thinking it may be the way to go for next time see how I go!

I haven't got a sore mouth but the nose is really bad its like you have a cold but its dry up your nose from breathing and collects dry mucus great ha ! But I am grateful its not my mouth that would be worse. A lot of people tell me I look great and it may be because I have been using the Dove tinted moisturiser to make me look a little more normal it also blends the really white scull from my face that has a bit of color.

I was down a lot this time finding it depressing just being home not doing anything and not having the energy or motivation to do anything. I felt like it was never going to be over and then on the 10th day I woe up and gone the nausea had decided to leave and I was stoked so I got up and pushed myself to go out for the day and went to the movies to see Breaking Dawn. I was happy that I could go out and feel normal.

I am still needing to rest quite a bit but its what my body needs and I am trying to get in exercise as the fluid retention is really quite restrictive I have even stopped wearing my engagement ring because its uncomfortable.

I have been bitten on my head by a mosquito yes you heard it right never before has it happened now my head is fair game apparently because it hasn't any hair. I didnt think it was very fair and it really hurts to be honest.

Ethan, Matt and my nephew Caleb thought it was time to try the wig themselves they thought it was funny, here are the pics.

I am back for my half way mark 3rd Cycle next week Thursday the 1st so will be out for a bit, but I have the appointment with my surgeon on the 5th December to find out when and what surgery type I am in for so I will keep you posted, I am hoping to have the option of Implants as it is the quickest healing and I can maybe get back to some type of normality soon.

2nd Cycle :)