Christmas this year was hard my family was meant to go to Melbourne to spend with my dad and Pam and extended family, I was going back to see my nana who was turning 98 at the time. When the oncologist told me there was too much of a risk to hold the treatment and gave me a letter for the airline so that we could go another time.
Disappointed that cancer had stopped me doing something that I was so looking forward to was hard and I didn't take it well, I got upset and cried wondering why it had to happen.
I thought about my nan and that cancer may have taken away the last chance of seeing her before she passes away, at the moment she is still hanging in there and am hoping she can wait a little longer.
So I started to think that Christmas here wouldn't be so bad I have the rest of my family here and it was going to be a nice day anyway, ten my sister in law said that she wasn't going to Melbourne she was also going through a hard time recovering from Melanoma cancer and just couldn't face travelling so Christmas was looking busier.
Chemo on the 23rd what a day for my treatment to fall on :( I knew I was going to be sick how sick was just a guess at this stage.
Chemo went well it was number 4 and the best way to look at it was to say only 3 I needed to survive and I was finished ! I went home and took it easy for the first day or two and then Christmas day came and I was up and about making Chilli Mussels.
With dark eyes and the feeling of being sick I sat down to lunch but soon felt sick, I went tot the toilet and felt faint so laid on the floor in the laundry to cool down as not to faint when my sister found me, she yelled to Matt and then mum came in and freaked out.
I simply felt faint and did so every month when I had chemo no one had ever been home when I went through this that's all !
I was taken to the couch where the air con was and cold cloth on my head, that helped and I went to sleep Merry Christmas ur well it is just one day after all.
I started to get feel better and went out to a few places Penguin Island and managed to go to Adventure World with my son and nephews it was a good few days before it was all to happen again, the next round was too soon after Christmas. Ur well just think Elisha only 2 to go people would say. When they did I felt like punching them it wasn't easy by any means to feel that sick.
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